There are small disappointments like believing your usual ice cream will be readily on the shelf (although I'm probably projecting on this one) and then due to COVID it turns out that many things are suddenly out of stock for a while and it sinks in that you just won't be able to have what you were once used to having.
Small disappointments can also be simple things like thinking a package will be delivered on time but finding out it's been delayed, or looking forward to a movie with a good friend, but the friend needs to cancel due to some event that has come up in their life.
Disappointments are unfortunate, but they are a part of life and so we learn to cope with them and take them in stride. We learn that not everything will go the way we expect or at least hope it will go. So disappointment is usually something that we humans can handle and move on from.
But there is a new kind of disappointment going on right now in the world that has a much more personal tone to it, and that is the disappointment we feel when we've expected our fellow human beings to be much more ethical, moral, honest, sane, and even civil than we find them out to be. Or we are at least witnessing them to be.
Maybe we'd had an unspoken belief that no matter what our differences or disagreements, we'd at least be able to trust that those we thought we knew would not stoop to such levels of behavior. And it is disappointing to experience because once we've witnessed otherwise, all trust is broken. Sometimes we even believe that our enemies themselves will not go beyond a certain point of behavior, even though they are our enemies. We believe that war crimes won't take place, and everyone will follow national and international laws the same way we'd all obey a basic traffic signal to avoid injuring ourselves and others.
I frequently tell my clients that frustration, disappointment and suffering come when we want things to be other than what they really are. To want someone to love us who does not. To want someone to be honest when they are not. To want the truth from a liar. To expect republican views from a democrat, or progressive views from a conservative. To want a racist to be an anti-racist, or someone who is denying reality to see it. To want people to vote the way we want them to vote, or to raise their kids the way we think they should raise them. And we want our fellow Americans to act and behave the way we personally think an American should based on our personal interpretation of what an American is and should be. But of course, the definitions differ widely. And when reality sinks in and we see the many differences of view, opinion, and belief among us--disappointment comes. Suffering comes because it's never the way we fully want it to be.
Acceptance is the key, but you might feel disappointed to know that acceptance is not what you expect it to be... either.
Acceptance does not mean we like what we've found. Or that we agree with what we've found. It means we've finally admitted to what is present, real, and true. It's the final stage of the grief process where we reach a place of knowing what the truth is, and once we know what the truth is and can accept it with open eyes and open awareness, then we can finally make decisions about our new direction.
For instance, if you are disappointed because a relative is devoted to a political party that is opposite of the one you are devoted to, rather than wring your hands and fill your mind with hatred, you can instead accept that this reality is true: that you will not get what you want, which is for them to believe otherwise (and most of all to agree with you). Acceptance does not mean you like it or agree with it, but that you can see it and know it is real and true. Once you do that then you can make decisions on what direction to take your life in next. Fighting and demanding that things be other than what they truly are will only lead to suffering
Disappointment comes because things are not going the way we wanted or expected them to go. Acceptance leads us to healing and letting go, and it frees us from suffering. It doesn't mean we don't grieve the loss, and it doesn't mean that we had not wished it to be different than it turned out to be. But with acceptance we free up our energy to be more productive in areas of our lives where we can make a difference. Trying to change things that can't be changed is only a waste of time and energy.
We can and do absorb disappointment every single day. Waking to the reality of these disappointments helps us make decisions about our new direction in life. How to "move on" as they say. Being realistic is what helps us have healthy expectations of others and of ourselves. We can know we are stuck when we are continually trying to make something be other than what it really is, and when we do that, then suffering begins. When we finally accept things for how they really are, we find our way out of suffering.
Thanks to photographymontreal for the great photo (https://creativecommons.org/publicdomain/mark/1.0/)
